Tuesday, July 31, 2007

American Idol Live

Just got home from American Idol Live and it's late and I'm soooo tired. I had so much fun. However, I am not going to blog about it tonight. I just wanted to blog something to keep up with my 30 Day Challenge. The show was great and I promise to go into more detail tomorrow! Goodnight! :)

Monday, July 30, 2007

~~Menu Plan Monday~~ #2

Monday~Breakfast (eggs, bacon, toast, grits!)

Tuesday~hamburger helper and a vegetable for the boys because I'm going to American Idol Live!!! :)


Thursday~ Chicken Legs, rice, black eyed peas, broccoli

Friday~ Homemade pizza

Saturday~ Build your own sandwich night. (Ian works late tonight!)

Sunday~ Pork Roast, mashed potatoes, corn, crescent rolls

For more Menu Plan Monday, visit Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie!

Teething Sucks!!!

So my little Jman is 10 months old and he has 2, count them 1-2, teeth. He's apparently cutting more although I can't see where any are coming through. He is a crabby little bugger today. He's running a little temp that makes me believe that it's not something more serious. If he's sick with even a cold his fevers run in the 101-102 category. He's tired and fussy and I just can't seem to make him happy right now. So I've given him a dose of advil and plopped him in his crib where he is now screaming his head off. This breaks my heart but he was screaming his head off in here too, so it's either I let him cry himself to sleep or let him drive me completely bananas in here. You can see my point I'm sure. I just wish that this teething thing would hurry up already. I mean come on! Brennan had teeth at 2 months and by the time he was a year old he was cutting his one year molars. Poor Jaxon is just suffering and nothing to show for it.

Ahhh! He's fallen asleep I think. Well at least he's quiet now. I'm not about to go in there just yet to let him start screaming all over again. Can someone please pass me a big glass of wine and run me a nice bubble bath??? Please?!

Hi, My name is Denise! I'm Addicted to Blogging! (*Hi Denise*)

So I was checking out Nell's blog a few minutes ago and found this quiz. I figured I'd see if I was addicted to blogging. Yep, 67 %. Guys, I've only been blogging for about a minute (just like two months) so this is alarming. As I sit here merrily and blog about my addiction! :) he he! See how addicted you are!

67%How Addicted to Blogging Are You?

Brooklyn Singles from Mingle2

Sunday, July 29, 2007

30 Day Blogging Challenge

Nell at Casual Friday has issued a 30 day blogging challenge to motivate people to blog. I've just signed up! I blog but not everyday and this will kick me into high gear. Here's the details:

{Copy and Pasted from Casual Friday}
Who wants to join in on the 30 day blogging challenge with me?
Post to your blog every single day without fail for 30 days! It starts July 29th, but you can join in late and extend your 30 days of posting.
How to join in:
Leave your blog link in Mr. Linky! (Then all the 30 day bloggers will be able to find you here. )
Post on your blog about joining this blog game and then link back to this exact post so that everyone who is joining in can find all the fellow 30 day mom bloggers!
Visit as many other participants as possible and let them know you’re also taking the 30 day blog challenge so that they can follow your blog, also.
(the orginal rules were to post all the 30 day participants on your blog, too. However, I have a feeling this could get really big in the mom blogging community. We love to blog!)
Happy blogging my friends! I can’t wait to keep up with your blogs. Fun! Fun!

So who's gonna join me in this blogging challenge??? I'm so excited! HUGS, Denise

Saturday, July 28, 2007

Weekend Reflection #3

This week was basically a dull week for us. Monday I took Brennan to swimming. Ian and I had an appointment that we had to go to that afternoon. I worked on two baby baskets that our squadron puts together and gives out when a new baby arrives.

Tuesday I had to take Brennan to swimming lessons. I came home and cleaned a bit. My back started hurting really bad. Not the usual fibromyalgia pain that I usually get. It even hurt to breathe. Ian finally got his fuel pump replaced. It only took him 3 hours to put it back together. I am so happy about that!! I don't have to chaufer him around anymore. I also forgot my military ID and realized that as I was coming home from the Chiro. Ian had to go home and get and bring it to me off base so I could go home!

Wednesday I took Brennan to swimming lessons. I had lunch with my friend Sarah and her baby Milo. We went to her house for about an hour to let the boys play for a bit. It was a lot of fun. My back wasn't feeling any better so I called an made an appointment with my chiropractor. He saw me at 3:00 and said that the right half of my body was higher than the left. No wonder I was in so much pain.

Jaxon and Milo playing

Thursday we totally forgot about the last day of swimming lessons. I still wasn't feeling well. My internet went down and comcast said they couldn't come until Monday! I babysat my neighbors kids and I was supposed to have my two regular boys that day as well but didn't. Ian left to go to his friend Kris's to watch a baseball game. They were all drinking so they all passed out in his living room. I was telling my friend Kim that I'd never read any of the Harry Potter books and just didn't get what all the hoopla was about for the last month with the release of the movie and the last book. Almost everyone I know is obssessed with this boy named Harry Potter and his magical world. So I told her that I was going to have to find out what it was all about. I said I think I'll read the first one and see if it's any good. Thursday night Kim knocked on my door. I opened it up and Kim was standing there with the first book. She says to me, "now you know I really like you because I don't even let Ivy read this one! She has her own!" Ivy is her almost teenage daughter. (Yes, Kara you may now cry now!) I laughed and told her I'd take very good care of it. I started reading it Thursday night but only got two chapters in before I fell asleep from the pain meds I took. I took a nice nap and then got up and fed my kids, and took a hot bath and read some more. I read some before I went to bed also.

Friday morning Ian came home about 10 and I was laying in bed reading HP. He says lets do something today. I said like what? He says well lets get dressed and go have lunch, then maybe the zoo. So we were out the door around 11:30. We went to Denny's for lunch and then off to Utah's Hogle Zoo. We had so much fun. It was hot and it was a lot of walking but Brennan was sooo excited to see all of the animals. Jaxon like them too. So right before we were fixing to leave we go into the gift shop. I'd promised Brennan he could pick something out to take home. Ian waited outside with Jaxon while Brennan and I looked around. Brennan had finally decided on adding to his rock collection and was happily filling up his little bag with new rocks. I was headed outside to call Ian to bring my wallet. As I got to the door I hear "DENISE!!!" I turned around and I almost fell over. It was my dear friend Amanda who'd moved to Gaum last December. She'd come back for a short visit to see her family. I was soo excited to see her. We made plans to have lunch this coming Thursday. I can't wait! :) So we run to the commissary and then go home. Ian headed out to go see the Simpson's movie with Kris. He says that it was very funny but not something children should see. My children don't watch the tv show so they won't be seeing this movie. So I read HP until after midnight last night. It was all I could do not to finish the whole book but I was sooo tired.

Ian, Jaxon and Brennan on the Zoo~express!

Me and Jaxon on the Zoo~express!

Saturday (today) I woke up and fed Jaxon a bottle and we went back to sleep until 10:30. It was nice to "sleep in." Ian had left at like 6:30 to go help some guy tile something or build something. See how well I listen when I have my nose stuck in a book??? He came home at 11:30 and watched the boys while I finished reading the last 20 pages of HP. I got up and put my shoes on and walked across the street to Kims. When I walked in her husband Glen asked me what was up. I told him I wanted to return her book. I heard her laughing. He said tell Ian not to hold me responsible for getting you hooked. Kim is going to loan me the second book. I hope it's soon. I'd love to get started on the next one! :)

After I did that I checked my mail and had a lot of mail in there. I don't think I checked it in a few days. I had two packages from the Tori's Good Mail group. I was so excited. Tori sent me these adorable I Love Lucy note cards and Kayelyn sent me a bunch of stuff for my burn and first aid for my owie :), a birthday card (my first one so far!), and my very own birthday goody bag! It has all kinds of cool stuff in it like gum, candles, party favors. I was sooo excited to get it. Thanks ladies. You made my day. Good mail girls, be on the lookout. I'll have some packages mailed out on Monday! As soon as my camera battery charges I'll post pictures of my GOOD MAIL! :)

After that I packed lunch and off we went to the splash pad. We met met my friend Rachiell and we had lunch and the boys played in the water. Rachiell and I caught up. It was so nice to sit and relax and really get to talk with her. She works all the time.

I came home and cleaned my house including my dishwasher. I'm pretty excited that it's all nice and clean right now. It makes me happy. I just have some laundry left to do tonight. Also, obviously my internet came back on. It was down for two whole days and it was AWFUL! All is well here now. :)

Tomorrow (Sunday) we are going to church. Ian is going to work as we are all done. He had originally taken it off for us to have a family day but they are really short staffed right now.

Well I better run for now. I need to give my boys baths and get them ready for bed. :)

For more weekend reflection, visit Judi!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

Thursday Thirteen

Thirteen of My All Time Favorite Movies:

1. Grease
2. Wizard of Oz
3. Dirty Dancing
4. Princess Diaries
5. Music and Lyrics
6. Charlotte's Web (the original)
7. How to Lose a Guy in Ten Days
8. Failure To Launch
9. American Pie
10. The Notebook
11. Pursuit of Happyness
12. Raising Helen
13. And my new favorite: Evan Almighty!

For more Thursday Thirteeners visit Toni and the TT.com!

I think I'm gonna have to rent most of these and veg out this weekend. Oh wait I still have to take care of my kids so I guess I'll narrow it down to the first half! :)

Pay It Forward

Ok so my friend Nancy is participating in this pay it forward game. Its purpose is to bring you a smile and someone else a smile. So here is the deal:

I will send a handmade gift to the first 3 people who leave a comment on my blog requesting to join this PIF exchange. I don’t know what that gift will be yet and you may not receive it tomorrow or next week… LOL… but you will receive it within 365 days, that is my promise! The only thing you have to do in return is pay it forward by making the same promise on your blog.What you do: Leave a comment here. The first three to say they are participating in paying it forward I’ll send a gift to. Then they go to their blog and have three friends sign up to participate. Everyone ends up with three cool gifts in exchange for their three they send out!

PS. Ok so this is supposed to be a "craft" pif and to be honest I haven't done a whole lot of crafting since I had the baby. So I will either do a craft (a good one I promise) or send you something else wonderful. I can't wait to see who responds.

Wordless Wednesday

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Sunday, July 22, 2007

Weekend Reflection #2

So my week was super busy! We had to take Brennan to Vacation Bible School and swim lessons everday this week. I did more housework and took Jaxon to his wellbaby. Ian's fuel pump went out on his truck last week so I've been chaufering him to and from both jobs everyday. I did get to go down to Sandy to my friend Heidi's house to scrapbook. I stayed the night down there so I didnt have to drive the long drive back to the base in the middle of the night. It was the first time I ever left Jaxon since he was in the hospital. It went fine. Ian did a great job in my absence. Here are some of the layouts I got done on Friday night.

Anyway, so tonight I was cooking dinner and I made a HUGE mistake. I was frying pork chops, had potatoes boiling, had corn on the stove. I turned the burner (we have a gas stove!) for the corn on and went back to doing something else. Well all of a sudden I smell plastic burning and I turn and see that I turned the wrong burner on. I had made rice krispy treats yesterday and had put them on the back burner on the stove and my cake pan was now on fire and melting. Well I grabbed the end that wasn't on fire with my left hand and not thinking put the right hand on the other end. Needless to say I dropped the cake pan back down because I'd just burnt the crap out of my hand. It was AWFUL. Ian had taken the car with Jaxon's car seat in it to walmart because he needed a tool for his gas tank. He left his cell at home. I didn't know what to do so I ran across the street to my friends Kim and Glen. Glen turned the water hose on and ran it over my hand while Kim got the aloe. Glen came over and got my kids and Kim took me to the ER. They cleaned it, bandaged it, gave me pain meds, and a tetnas shot and sent me home. I have second degree burns on my two fingers. It hurts like a bitch!!!! While I was gone Ian came home, got the kids, and finished dinner. It turned out delicious. Way to go honey!!! Here are the before and after pics of my hand. Enjoy!

For more Weekend Reflection, visit Judi!

Saturday, July 21, 2007

BOYS!!!!!! UGH

OK so don't get me wrong or anything, I love my children dearly! But why do boys have to do "boy" things???? I'm so frustrated with my child it's not funny. I've had the same talk with him several times about private parts and what's appropriate, not appropriate, and such. A few weeks ago Brennan got soaking wet and stripped outside my backdoor. Now I might not mind so much if we were in the country and not on an air force base with 9 houses right outside my backdoor. So we had the talk then. Keep in mind my son is 6. Then there were a couple of children in the opposing back yards who have been running around outside with no clothes on and so forth and so we had the talk AGAIN! So by now you'd think that Brennan would know that this stuff is NOT appropriate nor will Mommy tolerate it. NOPE! Guess what he did today? He decided that he didn't feel like coming inside to potty. That's right he peed OUTSIDE!!! The very worst part is that he had a friend over today and this friend came inside and told me that he did this. Needless to say the friend was sent home and Brennan was sent to his bedroom for a long while since I needed to seriously cool off. I just don't get it. I just don't get the urge to urinate in the outdoors. It's just not my thing. My husband has said to me several times that it's just something boys do! Well, I'm sorry but I don't think this is something boys should do! UGH! I'm so frustrated. Short of locking him in his bedroom for the rest of his life, I just am at my wits end with this particular subject! OK, I'm going to get me a glass of tea and a rice krispy treat and relax. I feel a tension headache coming on!

Friday, July 20, 2007

The perfect start to my day.... A FLOOD!

Yep, you read that right! We had a flood this morning. My day has just beautifully so far! Can you hear the sarcasm??? UGH so I got up late this morning to get ready to take Brennan to the last day of VBS at our church. So I get Brennan up and pull out his clothes and tell him to eat breakfast and brush his teeth. I go get in the shower and when I get out I'm standing there brushing my teeth in my towel when Brennan comes running in saying there is water everywhere. Of course I grab shorts and tshirt because I didn't know what I was going to find and didn't want to be just standing there in a towel. So I run into the kitchen thinking it was the sink but Brennan's yelling "MOM! MOM in here." So turn the corner and what do I see??? The hallway bathroom toilet is trying to make my house a swimming pool. I couldn't get it to stop. I found the water turn off thing and tried to turn it but it's sooo freaking old that it was stuck. So I grabbed the phone and called Ian at work. All I said was "I need you. There's a flood!" I hang up and call Boyer Hill. They are the leasing company that took over the military housing here when it privatized. They said they'd send someone out as soon as they could. So about 5 minutes later, I'm throwing every towel I own, clean or dirty, on the floor so that I can try to stop it from going into the bedrooms, or my kitchen or living room. It was awful. The water was soo cold too. Yes I didn't think to put shoes on. Thank goodness there wasn't anything in the toilet water that I had to worry about. So Ian gets home and turns the water off. 5 minutes later the two maintenance come in, look at my toilet and start heading for the door. They tell me we just came to turn the water off. Another guy will be here sometime today to actually fix it! WHAT??? WTF? Why can't you fix it now?? UGH!!! So Ian and I spend our time cleaning up the water that's everywhere. So about an hour later the guy that is coming to fix my toilet shows up. He says he needs to snake it. So he goes in and does that and then turns the water back on. Ta Da! It's fixed. It took him all of 10 minutes. How freaking hard was that? I get so frustrated with the maintenance here because if they can make someone else do it, that's exactly what they do! So of course you know my love affair with my camera, I took some pictures!

PS... the sexy guy in the uniform is my husband Ian. He came to my rescue! ;)

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Thusday Thirteen~~ Pedicure Style

So I went yesterday after I dropped Brennan off at Church and got a pedicure done. It's my thing. It's something I really enjoy and something I do about every 2 weeks. So in honor of this, heres:

ThirteenReason Why I LOVE Pedicures

1….You get to get pampered, even if it just for an hour.

2....You get to sit in a big comfy massage chair and relax.

3.... You get to soak your feet in a warm spa with jets and bath salts. It feels so nice.

4....I love that I don't have to clip and file my own toe nails. I always cut them too short and end up getting stupid ingrown toenails.

5... My feet are super rough on the bottom so they always shave and scrub the excess skin off so my feet are nice and soft.

6.... They massage your feet and legs and it feels wonderful. (Not to mention they use great lotion to do it so my legs are also relaxed and soft. It's another reason to shave my legs also!! :)

7..... They wrap your feet in super hot towels to releave stress and loosen up those muscles. It's divine!!!

8.... You can go by yourself, with your baby, or with a friend or even two. I usally go with a friend but this time I took Jaxon!! He loved all the attention he got and frankly so did I!!

9.... They put this stuff on your toenails to help with the cuticles so it doesn't hurt when they push them back or trim them.

10... I love getting pick out a fun, pretty color! I try a different one each time I go or at least I try to. My favorite is a coral color though.

11. I LOVE Nail art. Not the airbrushing, but they actually paint a design freehand on your toesies!

12.... I love feeling like a princess. I love how pretty my toes are when they are all done!!!

13...I love the fact that people actually NOTICE my feet. I enjoy having someone say OMG your toes are soo cute!!! It makes me feel good. :)

Aren't they pretty????

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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

Wordless Wednesday

Happy 10 Month Birthday Jaxon Ryker!!!!!! Way to Grow Baby!!!! Mommy Loves You!

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I Guess I'm Officially A Schmoozer!!!

So I finally get to go stalk, no I mean check out Toni's blog today and I find that she bestowed upon me a rather interesting award! The "Schmooze" Award! Thanks Toni. I'll wear my schmoozing badge with horror, I mean honor! :)

The definition of a Schmoozer is: "As it goes, schmoozing is the natural ability “to converse casually, especially in order to gain an advantage or make a social connection.” Good schmoozers effortlessly weave their way in and out of the blogosphere, leaving friendly trails and smiles, happily making new friends along the way. They don’t limit their visits to only the rich and successful, but spend some time to say hello to new blogs as well. They are the ones who engage others in meaningful conversations, refusing to let it end at a mere hello - all the while fostering a sense of closeness and friendship."

So I am going to pass the award to:

My Kara~beara (my nick name for her! She has several she's given herself!) I love this girl. When I met her in person she threw me a freakin party! Too bad we live 2000 miles away. She makes a great panini and a super sweet Kara-colada.

And Nancy, she's been a great help to me with the blogging world and encouraging in the mommy world.

Thanks to these two great ladies! Love ya both!

Jaxon's 9 Month Well Baby

So we just got back from Jaxon's 9 month Well Baby visit. Yes, I know I'm a slacker mommy. He will be 10 months old tomorrow. So the good news is that Jaxon now weighs..... drum roll please..... 17 lbs 8 oz!!!!!!!!! Way to grow Jaxon!!!! He is officially in the 5th percentile on the growth chart. That's the highest he's ever been! So one he's back on the gc and two he's finally getting up there!!!!! No more preemie chart!!!!

Now here's the kind of makes me sad, kind of makes me happy info. The ped says that Jaxon is delayed even more than his adjusted age of 8 months on some things like gross motor skills. He says at the very least Jaxon should be rolling (he's not) and putting himself into a sitting position. He can sit up for a while and play but I have to sit him up. If he falls over, he can't get back up. I'm not worried about the crawling or creeping. I'm actually not sure I'm ready for that yet but he should be able to do these basic things. He also is concerned that he's not doing the pincher grasp. He can use his whole hand for things but he can't pick up like cheerios or gerber fruit puffs. He says other than these things Jaxon is extremely happy and healthy.

He looked at his circumcision and it's healing beautifully. He told me that I need to start pulling the skin back from the head of the penis so that it doesn't try to reattach itself. He said that if you don't take care of that properly that it can do that. But he looked at it and it looks great. :)

Oh and as far as his acid reflux, we are going to wait a little longer before we see a gastroenterologist (I didn't spell that right I dont think). He said that most babies out grow the acid reflux by this age but that they are usually upright so much more, sitting, crawling, creeping, pulling up and that it helps a lot. Since Jaxon hasn't reached those milestones he wants to give it some more time before he refers us to one. So hopefully by his 12 month check up we'll either be reflux free or going to see the specialist.

Anyway, so I'll keep you updated on how my sweetie is doing. I've already called EI and I'm waiting for them to call me back. I hope they can get out here soon to reevaluate him. Waiting sucks!

Monday, July 16, 2007

~~Menu Plan Monday~~ #1

My very first Menu Plan Monday. I figured I'd give this a try as we eat out way too often. I'm not promising anything but I will give it my honest to goodness best shot. So here is my menu for the week:
Monday: Pineapple Ham, Cheese Pasta with Broccoli and Carrots
Tuesday: Chicken and Rice
Wednesday: Crock Pot Roast with potatoes and carrots
Thursday: Chef Salad
Friday: BLT's
Saturday: Shake n bake pork chops, mashed potatoes, corn
Sunday: Turkey Breast, green beans, macaroni and cheese
Well day one down and that is what we had for dinner. Only 6 more days to go! :)
For more Menu Plan Monday menu's visit Laura at I'm an Organizing Junkie!

Sunday, July 15, 2007

Weekend Reflection #1

Ok so I've been reading about Weekend Reflections for a while and thought I'd do my very first one today since I've really been getting into the blogging world lately. So here goes:

I'm trying to remember exactly what we did this week. I know it was a super busy one. So on Monday we had swimming lessons. Brennan at 9 and Jaxon at 11:15. I don't think we did anything else. I think we came home and I cleaned the house some and that's about it. Ian worked at the base and at Pepboys.

Tuesday we had swim lessons. I went to lunch at Olive Garden with my new friend Sarah and her darling baby Milo. (We met them at swimming!) Ian was off so I only had to take one boy at a time to his lesson and Jaxon went with me to lunch. It was great. Then I came home and did some laundry and Ian did the yard. We had an appointment so we went to that. Afterward we got the kids and did some stuff around the house. It's never ending. Then we took the kids to the babysitters and went out for dinner at Texas Roadhouse. It's one of my all time favorite restaurants and they just opened one up near us. :) We came home and put the kids to bed and headed to bed since we still had a busy week.

Wednesday came with swim lessons again and not much else. I swear I clean constantly but you'd never know it! Ian came home from work at 5 and I made dinner. We got the kids ready for bed and then I left for water aerobics. I met Sarah there and we really had a good time. It was a great workout. I came home, woke Ian up (he'd fallen asleep on the couch) and we headed to bed.

Thursday was our last day of swim lessons. We had so much fun. They boys got certificate that said they successfully completed their level. The last ten minutes of class they turned all the fun stuff on and let the kids go at it. They had a blast. Afterwards, Sarah and I took the kids to the mall for lunch. Ian was called into work that night so we didn't do much but hang around the house and do laundry. When Ian got home, we put the kids to bed and headed there ourselves. Usually I watch a little tv before I fall asleep but this night I crashed.

Friday, Ian was off from both jobs again. He made pancakes for breakfast and I made beds and started laundry. We got ready and we headed to the Roy Aquatic Center for the day. Ian had never been there so it was a lot of fun. We'd stopped at the BX to get towels, sunscreen, and a floaty toy for Jaxon but turns out he didn't like the crab so much. I'm hoping he'll get used to it. It has a little cover so that he has shade from the sun. Ian and Brennan went down the slides together, and then Brennan and I had our turn. Finally Brennan decided he was a big boy and would go all by his self. He did great. We ate lunch and played for a while longer and then we headed home. We went to the commissary for a few things I needed to make dinner. When we got home, the kids napped and I started dinner. Ian ended up sun burnt on his shoulders but the rest of us were just tan. Poor guy!

Saturday, I did MORE cleaning and Ian worked on lowering his drive shaft (his fuel pump went out on his truck last week). I took him to work and came home. I spent the day doing housework and playing with the kids and checking out blogs that I'd come across. I went to pick him up at 8:00 and he wasn't done so I went to Babies R Us. I needed to get that inflatable bath tub that goes inside the big tub. Jaxon has now learned to splash in the sink and makes a HUGE mess every time I bathe him now. I bought him a few bath toys too. We will be trying this out tonight. After we got home from picking Ian up, I started making spinach artichoke dip and Ian ran to the walmart for a few things. When he got back we got the kids ready for bed and after they went to sleep we had our MASH date night. We are addicted to the show MASH and so we munched on chips and watched a few of the episodes we had taped. It was fun.

Today found to be another busy day. I woke up at 6 and fed Jaxon. We laid back down for about an hour and then I had to get up and shower. I had to take Ian to work and get to church. I worked in the nursery for the first hour and then I went to my class. We had a good class. I learned a lot. After church, I took the boys to Village Inn for lunch. We went to Target to pick up Brennan's friend Elliot's birthday present. When we got home Brennan quickly changed and headed out the door across the street for the party. I changed clothes, changed Jaxon, and wrapped Elliot's presents. Then we went across the street also. Even though it was a 5 year olds birthday party we had fun. I really enjoyed the company of the adults and got to know some of my neighbors a little better. We've only lived here a year! It's taken me long enough. :) Right now Jaxon is sleeping, Brennan is next door playing with the kids in the backyard, and I'm typing this. In about 45 minutes I will be going to get Ian from work, coming back, cooking dinner, and getting the kids ready for bed. We have another busy week ahead of us so hopefully I will be able to get to bed at a decent hour.

I hope you have had a wonderful week and have an even better one next week. For more Weekend Reflection please visit Judi.

Saturday, July 14, 2007

I've been tagged... 8 random things about me ~ college edition

Nancy, mom of a micro-preemie, tagged me for the college edition. My first one! :) Ok so here are the rules!
1) Each player must post these rules first.2) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.3) Tagged people post their eight things and these rules.4) End your post by ‘tagging’ eight new people to play.5) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog for these instructions.

1. My college was Trident Technical College in Charleston, SC.
2. I studied to be a Legal Assistant.
3. My roommate during college went to the College of Charleston but we lived in an apartment in downtown Charleston together. (sort of)
4. I met my Bestest friend in the world in our Torts class. We would run to KFC before the class and grab lunch and eat it during the lecture.
5. I "dropped out" after I was 5 months pregnant with Brennan and was too tired and sick to move let alone go to class in the evening after working all day.
6. While I was going to TTC I worked for a family law attorney as a paralegal.
7. In 2005 to 2006 I took online classes and got my Bookkeeping Certificate.
8. I will be going back to school soon to get my Associates in Accounting.

Ok here are the people I'm tagging....

Neptune Baby

Happy Blogging!!!!

The Teacher

I saw this on Becki's blog (she's AWESOME!!!) and wanted to share it with you all too. I think it makes an extremely powerful statement!

The Teacher
After being interviewed by the school administration, the teaching prospect said, “Let me see if I’ve got this right: You want me to go into that room with all those kids, correct their disruptive behavior, observe them for signs of abuse, monitor their dress habits, censor their T-shirt messages, and instill in them a love for learning.”
“You want me to check their backpacks for weapons, wage war on drugs and sexually transmitted diseases, and raise their sense of self esteem and personal pride.”
“You want me to teach them patriotism and good citizenship, sportsmanship and fair play, and how to register to vote, balance a checkbook, and apply for a job.”
“You want me to check their heads for lice, recognize signs of antisocial behavior, and make sure that they all pass the state exams.”
“You want me to provide them with an equal education regardless of their handicaps, and communicate regularly with their parents by letter, telephone, newsletter, and report card.”
“You want me to do all this with a piece of chalk, a blackboard, a bulletin board, a few books, a big smile, and a starting salary that qualifies me for food stamps.”
“You want me to do all this and then you tell me…I CAN’T PRAY?”
~Author Unknown

I have a confession....

Premature babies have been in my life in one way or another since 1996. The first "preemie" I knew was my brother. He was a 32 weeker. At at 16 (my age at the time of his birth) I did not know how serious this was. I knew that he was hooked up to all these machines and tubes and he was small and it was very scary. When he came home I believe 2 months later he had this monitor and it would go off for no reason at all sometimes and scare the living day lights out of us. This was the extent of my knowledge of preemies then. I didn't know the horror that my Dad and Vicki had to go through then. How terrified they must have been. They never really let on in front of me. My brother is now 11 years old. He's tall and he's healthy and he LOVES video games.

The second preemie that I knew was my best friend Olga's daughter, Anna. She was born at 27 weeks. I met Anna when she was a year old. I didn't know what Olga and Anna had to endure when she was born either. I knew there were some issues from Anna being preemie that she's had to deal with in later years such as ROP. Still I didn't know what any of it meant.

She gave birth to Tyler at 25 weeks. Sadly he passed three days after he was born. I didn't know Olga at this time either so still I didn't know.

I gave birth to Brennan and the stinker was 2 weeks late. So he was a 42 weeker! LOL. I remember them telling me right before we were supposed to go home that he had jaundice and that he might not be able to go home with me. I remember crying and thinking that it was the worst thing in the world to have to leave my baby in the hospital and go home. I couldn't imagine. Finally the doctors allowed us both to leave at the same time. Still at this time, I didn't know.

Then Olga had Joey. He was also a 32 weeker. He was just amazing. He came home with no problems and at age 5, he's still strong and healthy as he ever was. So once again I didn't know.

I met Stephanie in 2005 when I moved to Utah and she gave birth to Joey. He was born at 31 weeks. I remember visiting them at the NICU the day after he was born. I remember sitting there taking it all in and thanking God for never having had to endure that. Joey came home after 15 days in the NICU. He was just fine until about 6 months of age. Joey regressed for some reason and over the span of 10 months, he got worse and worse. They found out that he was blind, he had seizures and so much more that it would take forever to list. Eventually, at 16 months old, Joey passed away. This was just a few months ago.

You see I've always believed there was this club that I didn't belong to. One that I heard about often and I'd listen, and smile or nod, cry or hold the hand of a my friend, give some encouragement but I'd never known exactly what it meant to be in that club. It was one I'd never hoped to belong to. It was one I didn't understand, it was one that I prayed stayed far away from me. This club is being a mommy of a preemie. This club is one that I watched from afar. This club that I joined reluctantly in 2006.

I found out February 2006 that I was pregnant again. He was due October 31, 2006. I delivered him via c-section September 18, 2006. He was a 34 weeker. Finally I knew. It's not a world I ever wanted to personally be a part of. It's not a world I ever thought I would be a part of. Being a mommy to a preemie was so far beyond my imagination that I was just in shock. Even after knowing these other preemies in my life I still had no idea what was in store for us. Our "ride" (and that's EXACTLY what it was) in the NICU was so up and down that day to day I didn't know what to expect. I had to put my complete trust and faith into these people I did not know to make sure that my beautiful baby would eventually come home with me. Finally I knew what it was like to not only leave the hospital without my baby but also what it was like to have him leave the hospital before me only to be taken to a better hospital. A hospital that was equipped to handle his needs. I remember walking into the NICU for the first time. It was scary. I knew what to expect since I'd been in one before but it's a whole different world when you are visiting your own baby. His NICU stay was the hardest 25 days of my life. I can't imagine what it was like for him but I know it was hard on me. I thank God daily for the neonatologists and the nurses at St. Marks NICU. They were amazing. The day he came home was the best day of my life. I was sooo excited and happy. I didn't sleep at all. I kept staring at him in his cradle. The cradle that his daddy and his brother had both slept in as babies.

I know this is a long post but I'm getting to my confession I promise. Several months ago someone said to me that they'd say I told you so when Jaxon wasn't "perfect" like I expected him to be. I was extremely hurt by this and over the last 6 months I've let it consume me. I've let it determine what I say and how I say it. I've let it live in my heart and I don't know how to let it go. I realize that my telling you all about my experience with preemies doesn't really have anything to do with what I'm about to say except that until Jaxon I didn't know what it was like. Basically I've lied due to what was said to me. I've lied to everyone including myself at times. Jaxon is somewhat delayed. He is a very happy baby. He is healthy for the most part. He has rolled over about 4 times in the last 6 months. He just began to sit unassisted. I have to sit him up he can't get into that position on his own. He doesn't get up on all 4, he doesn't crawl or pull up, or cruise. He isn't doing the things that a term 10 month old does. He's on maybe a 5 or 6 month level. He's coming along at his own pace and that's fine. It's taken me a while to come to terms with it because I didn't want this person to be right. I didn't want to admit that it caused me more worry than I'd like. But I realized that as I was hanging onto the lies, I was hanging on the the hurt and anger. It was keeping me from really and truly enjoying my little man. I enjoyed him but in the back of my mind it's always been there so when I was playing with him or holding him it wasn't just playing and holding him, it was me trying to make him do things at my pace. Things to prove this person wrong. I've now decided that in order for me to move on, heal, and enjoy my sweet baby, I've got to forgive this person for their transgressions against me. We may never be friends again and they may never see this but I'll know. I'll know that I'm making my peace with it. I wish this person all the best and I know that due to some very bad things that have happened in their lives the last few months, that they will be healing too. I hope and pray that everything works out for them. I truly mean that. I'm forgiving and I'm trying very hard to let it go. I will have to leave it at the cross daily I'm sure.

For the rest of my friends and loved ones, I'm sorry. I never meant to lie to you or hurt you in any way. I hope that you understand that it was mainly me lying to myself over and over. Trying to prove something that there is no need for me to prove. My baby is happy and healthy. He is learning and doing new things all the time. They may not be huge things but I'll cherish even the small ones. I promise from now on you will know exactly what I know about how Jaxon is doing. I promise to embrace being the mommy of a preemie instead of trying to run from it. I still have many things to learn and this has been one of them. Thank you all for listening. It's something I tried to say many times but wasn't able to. I even started this blog two weeks ago and was just able to come back and finish it. I guess I'm making progress. :)

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Thursday Thriteen

Thirteen Things about I'd like to do before my 27th Birthday

1…. Begin to catch up on my scrapbooking (I haven't done this in MONTHS)

2.... Get my Utah drivers licence (my SC DL expires on my birthday this year)

3.... Start tackling this weight I've put on over the years.... I'd like to lose 10 lbs by my birthday. It'd be a good start.

4.... Have a romantic weekend with my husband. (we never have enough time together)

5.... Get professional pictures taken of my family in the mountains. My friend Jennifer is a great photographer and this is her job.

6.... Forgive the people who have hurt me in the past year.... this may take a little longer than my birthday but I'd like to begin to heal this at least.

7.... I want to get a new hair do.... don't know what yet but maybe a different cut and color.

8.... I want to get my house organized and ready for the school year.

9.... I want to be able to blog more and get better at it.

10... I want to go to Lagoon and try their roller coasters. I'm not really big on them so it will possibly conquer a fear.

11... I want to go on vacation. I think we may go to Seaworld but I'm not sure I have my husband completely convinced.

12... I want to redo both bathrooms.... They need a serious change.

13... Last but not least I want to begin to get out of this depression that's had a hold for the last 6 months. I'm already taking steps to heal that also. When I turn 27 I want to be on a path to bettering myself. Only a month to go!

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5. Amy

6. Tink

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8. Lisa

9. Growing with Julia

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Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Friday, July 6, 2007

I Would Die For That

My friend Nancy posted this on her blog and I had to repost it. My personal struggle with pregnancy has been a hard road. When I was 13 I'd had so many problems with my female anatomy that the doctors (several of them) told me I'd never get pregnant. I also found out during that time that I had Endomitriosis and that it makes getting pregnant extremely hard but that the best possible "cure" for it was pregnancy! Go figure. When I was 19, although terrified, I found I out I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage that almost destroyed me. I had been so excited about getting pregnant since they told me that it was near impossible. In 2000, I found out yet again that I was pregnant. It was a very hard pregnancy that ended with him being 2 weeks overdue and an emergency c-section. But I had a beautiful baby boy! I didn't think I'd ever do it again. I didn't think it was possible to do it all again. When Brennan was about 2 years old I got the baby bug again. I wanted another one so badly. Finally I gave up and realized that I was destined to be a mommy to an only. Around that time the Dr's suggested that I have a hysterectomy and I just couldn't go through with that being only 23. I still had a small hope that one day God would bless me with another baby to love. That day came in February 2006. I remember being overjoyed and crying hysterically. I wasn't sad I was just so happy. This pregnancy wasn't an easy one either and Jaxon decided he just couldn't wait his 9 months. He came 6 weeks early and had a hard fight before he was able to come home. So yeah this video brought out a lot of emotion for me. Yes, I'd die for that. To this day I still would. What a reminder for me to be thankful for my two beautiful blessings.

Wednesday, July 4, 2007

Wordless Wednesday

Yes I know it's Wordless Wednesday but this picture makes me giggle. My little boy is growing up. Watching him learn to ride his bike was simply amazing. He tried and tried. He'd fall down and get back up. You see he'd wanted to learn to ride without training wheels for some time now but Mommy was nervous. Finally one day while I was gone Daddy took the wheels off and made a deal with him. If he could learn to ride without training wheels he'd get a very shiny brand new bike. Needless to say, he had a brand new bright yellow bike without training wheels THAT NIGHT! :)

For more wordless wednesday please go to 5 minutes for mom!

Monday, July 2, 2007

Swim Lessons

So today the boys started swim lessons at the Clearfield Aquatic Center. Since today was the first day they had to go over several rules about being around water. They included things like No Running, Look Before You Leap, Swim with a Buddy, Don't just pack it, wear your life jacket. NO I swear I'm not kidding about the rules. These are exactly the ones they gave us! We got to sit through it twice since Brennan's lesson is at 9 and Jaxon's is at 11:15. But once the instructions were given they divided the kids into their classes. There were TONS of kids there at all the sessions.

This is the instructor telling Brennan's class what to expect.

This is them getting into the water!

Making faces at mommy while she's busy with someone else!

Here she is holding Brennan while he's swimming and he has to put his face in the water while he's kicking his feet. He know's how to swim but he's self taught so we are starting at the basics with him.

Swimming lesson over for today! Mom that was fun!

Now it's Jaxon's turn! We had to sit on the side of the pool, put the babies next to us, hold their hands criss crossed in their laps as we slid into the pool. After we were in the pool we were allowed to bring them in with us. We were taught different ways to hold our babies in the pool. We played wheels on the bus, 5 little monkeys, and one of other really cute little game with them. Then we worked on floating. We had to start them off with their feet away from us, head on our shoulders and just float. Once they get the hang of that they can put their ears in the water, wave their hands and kick their feet. We got to move on to a few of those.
Waiting for our swim lesson to begin!
Sitting on the side of the pool waiting to get in.

Learning to float!
Posing for one picture before we get out of the pool.
I'm out now it's Mommy's turn to get out!
Chillin in my stroller, waiting for a changing room to open up! Mommy that was fun!
We have swim lessons for the next two weeks. On the last day they are going to open up all the pool areas for the kids to play and give them a certificate and a treat. Tomorrow we learn to go underwater. I'm a little nervous about this with Jaxon but I'm sure that Mommy and Baby will make it through! Wish us luck!!!! :)

Saying Goodbye

So Saturday I had to say goodbye to one of my dearest friends. Her name is Kristen. We met at the beginning of 2006 when our kids were both in the same preschool class. Toward the end of the school year she had Brennan over to play. We didn't see one another over the summer but when Kindergarten started we ran into each other and we began to set up playdates for the kids. After I had Jaxon, she began bringing Brennan home from school in the afternoons so I wouldn't have to take Jaxon out and expose him to all the big bad germs. Seeing her everyday, we became close. Pretty soon we were going out to dinner and a movie at least once a month. We always had a blast together. A few months before school let out she came to me and said that they had recieved orders. In the military that means that you have a new assignment and that you will be moving. Sadly we all know that this will eventually come but it never makes it any easier. So this day was Saturday. Well actually they left on Sunday, but we said goodbye on Saturday. We went out to dinner at Red Robin (our favorite restaurant) and saw Evan Almighty (Hilarious Great movie!) on Thursday night. Saturday, her daughter Grace came over and played for a few hours. We knew that when Kristen came to pick Grace up we'd be saying goodbye. The kids had a blast. I didn't have the heart to follow them with the camera while they were playing for the last time so I waited until right before they left. When Kristen walked in she kind of smiled and said "We are NOT saying goodbye! This isn't goodbye. It's I'll see you later!" Of course I was already in tears. (I'm an extremely emotional person!) So we went and woke Jaxon up so she could love on him for the last time. Here are some the pictures I took of them!

This one is my favorite picture! She's smiling and he's trying to look at her!

Then we called in Brennan and Grace and explained once more that they had to say bye but that they would stay in touch. I took a quick picture of them because they didn't want me to take too many~ you know they are too old for that! LOL :)

Aren't they the cutest best friends you've ever seen????!!!!!

These two were so cute all the time together. Funny side story Kristen told me about a conversation they had one day in her car. She said that Grace said she wanted to have a baby like Jaxon and Brennan agreed that one day he'd like to have babies too! Grace then says well I've got coupons for diapers! She's been collecting all the coupons for diapers out of all the Sunday papers for about a year now! LOL How cute was that! She's prepared! She's got coupons!

So anyway, I didn't get any pictures of me and Kristen that day because I had just put makeup on and it was by this time running down my face! So we hugged like a bagillion times and said I love you's and I'll miss you's. We walked them outside hugged the kids one last time and off they went. It breaks my heart just thinking of it. I drove by the TLF they were staying at on Sunday morning on my way off the base and their cars were already gone. Headed East to get on a plane. I wish them all the best and I know they are going to have an amazing adventure. I can't wait to hear the stories she's going to have once she gets there! I sure hope she gets to party with the guy that sits on the side of the road with a bird on his shoulder smoking a hooka pipe! (It's a picture she brought me the day she told me that she was moving! That's how she broke the news!)

But I did make her a few things for her to take with her. I'll share those with you all since I'm very proud of them!
This is the card I made for her. It's simple but it says it all. Friends 4 ever!
I had this picture of Kristen, Eileen, Leanne, and Me taken on June 1st at the Kindergarten Graduation party we threw for our kids blown up to 5x7. I put it in a frame and added a few extras on the matt. Then we (Eileen, Leanne, and Myself) signed a little note to her!