Friday, July 6, 2007

I Would Die For That

My friend Nancy posted this on her blog and I had to repost it. My personal struggle with pregnancy has been a hard road. When I was 13 I'd had so many problems with my female anatomy that the doctors (several of them) told me I'd never get pregnant. I also found out during that time that I had Endomitriosis and that it makes getting pregnant extremely hard but that the best possible "cure" for it was pregnancy! Go figure. When I was 19, although terrified, I found I out I was pregnant. I had a miscarriage that almost destroyed me. I had been so excited about getting pregnant since they told me that it was near impossible. In 2000, I found out yet again that I was pregnant. It was a very hard pregnancy that ended with him being 2 weeks overdue and an emergency c-section. But I had a beautiful baby boy! I didn't think I'd ever do it again. I didn't think it was possible to do it all again. When Brennan was about 2 years old I got the baby bug again. I wanted another one so badly. Finally I gave up and realized that I was destined to be a mommy to an only. Around that time the Dr's suggested that I have a hysterectomy and I just couldn't go through with that being only 23. I still had a small hope that one day God would bless me with another baby to love. That day came in February 2006. I remember being overjoyed and crying hysterically. I wasn't sad I was just so happy. This pregnancy wasn't an easy one either and Jaxon decided he just couldn't wait his 9 months. He came 6 weeks early and had a hard fight before he was able to come home. So yeah this video brought out a lot of emotion for me. Yes, I'd die for that. To this day I still would. What a reminder for me to be thankful for my two beautiful blessings.

4 comments:

Smooches, Kara said...

HEY!! I just noticed Tara Whitney's blog on your side bar. I have been loving her for years!!

Anywho back to your post.
Even though it didn't come easily you have two beautiful creatures in your life. Some say that is a true blessing. And I think you are rockin' for knowing that!!

Nancy Brown said...

I have endo as well and have had 2 surgeries to clean it out. This past weekend I think my uterus hates me yet again.... great song huh

Rebecca said...

This was so encouraging! God bless you!!!

Toni said...

I had to smile because I was just randomly making the blog rounds via CWO today and via "a blog of a blog", I arrived here to find that you posted the very same video I did today. Congrats on the precious treasures God has placed in your care.
Blessings,
~Toni~