Monday, September 3, 2007

So it's been a while....

Hey everyone. It's been a while. I can't believe it's September already. There's been a lot going on. Actually, to be completely honest, I've been having a really hard time lately. This year has been rough to say the least and I thought I was handling it well and I was until all of a sudden I just wasn't. Does that make sense? I have, unfortunately, fought depression since I was a teenager. It's also a terrible side effect of fibromyalgia. Of course I always managed to overcome these rough times. This time I wasn't doing so well. I stopped getting online, stopped calling people, and I was tired all the time. The only things I did were take care of my kids. I mean I did do other stuff here and there but the majority of my time was spent at home, in pajamas. I have decided that I've got to get out of this funk. I tried to call my doctor several times last week to schedule an appointment to discuss some temporary medication but the idiots never called me back. Don't think that I won't be giving them an earful when I do get someone to call me back. If nothing else I will go up there in person. Anyway, I'm finally ready to stop wallowing. Don't ask why I let myself get down like this. It wasn't anyone person, or thing that happened, it just sort of took hold before I knew it. My new focus is going to be getting in exercise everyday (I've already started, I'll explain soon) and getting out in the sunshine daily. I am going to see my doctor and discuss the meds but I'm hoping that I will start feeling better from the natural sertonin made from getting outside in the sun and getting my heartrate up. Wish me luck. I hate the thought of being on more medication.

What has been going on in the last few weeks? Well one thing as you know I turned 27 and I had a fabulous time doing it. Here are a few pictures from my birthday dinner...On the way to OG with Jennifer, Kim, and Stacey. Jennifer was the designated driver!

My Raspberry Margarita.... It was soo yummy! Not a great picture but I was fixing to take a drink when Leanne took the picture. :)

From left to right here are me and my girls.... Jennifer, Stacey, Leanne, the waiter Scott (I think his name was and according to Rachiell he was "FAMILY!"), ME, Kim, and Rachiell. We were all wearing lei's that night and of course mine was pink! I thought we were all very cute! It was a great night and so much fun to turn 27 with these amazing ladies who love me. I love you guys so much! I'll never forget this night!

About a week later Ian and I got over night sitters for the kids (Jaxon went to Jennifer's and Brennan went to Rachiell's) which we NEVER do. EVER! It was kind of hard not to call the whole night off and stay close to my babies. But we did go. It was HILARIOUS. We went to Ian's friend Kris's house and I learned to play asshole. It's a drinking card game and let's just say it was so freaking funny. In the game of asshole you have "ranks" and the person who goes out first is the President and the pres makes up a rule at the beginning of the game and they have to abide by it. Then it goes by who goes out next and so on. The last person to go out is the "asshole" and they have to wear a silly hat. However this person becomes the dealer and while they are dealing they can make people drink as much as they want. It was so funny. Here are some pics from that night:Ok it's a blury picture but I was the first asshole... I looked pretty funny with that hat.


Kris was the second asshole...

Jenni was the 3rd...

Staci was the 4th..

Ian was the 4th... (he and Lynn were quite wasted...) can you tell?

Ok so as the president you make up funny rules that people have to do if they do stuff like throw face cards or whatever and it was totally torture the guys night this night so every rule we three girls made as president we never had to do but the guys did. So here is Kris acting like an elephant, Ian was a penguin I think but he could barely stand up, and Lynn was playing with his nipples and supposed to be dancing... it got interesting.

Here is a picture of me and Jenni. I think it turned out very cute.

So the next item I have for you... Sorry this is so long but I just have so much to say and I'm afraid I'll forget it all. This is OUR HUGE NEWS! My Baby is CRAWLING!!!! So last Tuesday we had our IFSP meeting for EI and after Lisa left I put Jaxon down for his nap. When he got up he was kind of fussy so I was holding him but suddenly he didn't want that. I put him down on the ground and Brennan was sitting by the computer and he crawled to him! I was so freaking excited. So about that time Rachiell got here with the boys so she helped me get it on tape. Here is the video:


So then we come to Wednesday of this week. August 29th.... My baby became a first grader!!! He is so grown up and it's killing me. He even learned to tie his own shoes before he started school. I bought him new shoes on Tuesday and that night he learned to tie them. Wednesday he was a different kid. He wasn't a baby anymore. Here are some pics from that morning...

Tying his new sketchers... Fixing to walk to school on the first day....

Showing off his new Super Hero tshirt and bookbag....

Standing in his first grade class line for the very first time....

This was a hard day for me. He was starting real school and was going to be gone all day long. I was so proud of him. He was so excited and couldn't wait to see what first grade was gonna bring him. When they started to walk into the building he looked a little worried so I grabbed his hand and walked him to class. I watched from the door as he went in and took his seat, tears streaming down my face. I missed this last year as on his first day of kindergarten Ian has surgery on both legs in a hospital 45 minutes from where we live so my friend had to take him to school. So when his teacher shut the door I looked in the window for another minute and walked out of the school to where Ian was waiting with Jaxon. I'm so glad he left work at the last minute to be with us that day. We walked home hand in hand amazed that our Brennan was no longer a baby. He finished his first week (it was a short week only three days and they got out at 1:30 each day) so excited. He's already bringing home papers that he did in class, already making new friends, and loving the fact that he got to each school lunch. I wanted him to take his lunch but he said no. He wanted to buy it. He's already so independent. I pray that there is never a day that he doesn't need me at all. After I take him to school I take Jaxon on a walk through housing. It has lots of hills and it gives me a chance to reenergize before heading home and starting my day. Jaxon loves going for those walks.

Well I better go for now as I've written a novel and if you read all of it I thank you. I've missed my blogging friends and I promise to do better. HUGS!

7 comments:

Klin said...

I have been sooooo worried about you. I too have FMS and RA, so I so understand the depression thing. You need to email me and I'll give you my phone number. Then don't forget to call me when it gets tough. I have a few friends that I do this with. It helps sooooo much.

My email is available on the Good Mail blog that Tori did.

I'll be looking for your email to me:D

Klin said...

I just realize the I so used too many o's in so twice. :P

Oh,and I was ffffiiiirrrrsssstttt!

Smooches, Kara said...

Girl there is nothing wrong with Momma's taking a night to themselves to Rock Out!! It keeps us sane ;)

I wish I could of been there for some Strawberry Margarita's!!

And check out your two boys growing! They are gorgeous!!

I get depression sweetie. Do what you said get out and at least breathe sopme fresh air and let the sun shine down on you!

Nancy Brown said...

I just Im'd you but you got off... I was wondering where you had been..Glad to have you back and YAY for a milestone

Special K ~Toni said...

I completely understand! I went on 'happy pills' a few years ago- and it has helped me a ton!

Glad to hear you are ok and the pictures were a hoot!

just a blog said...

Just came across your blog and started reading here. I hope you're doing well. I think exercise and lots of outdoor time will do wonders to lift your spriits.

Your kids are both really cute!!

And Happy Belated 27th Birthday to you! I turned 27 at the end of August, so we're almost exactly the same age. It always seems kind of strange to me that someone my age could have a kid as old as your oldest... I feel so young. I don't have kids yet and am just now engaged to be married.

Anyway, hope you're doing well. I enjoyed reading your blog here.

just a blog said...

P.S. The game asshole looks like fun! :)