Sunday, November 4, 2007

My Big Mouth

So I seem to have this problem with my big mouth. It can get me into a lot of trouble sometimes. Occasionally I will say things and think why did I say that? And pray that no one will take it the wrong way. Sometimes I speak before I think. I try really hard to be respectful of people and their feelings and if I'm saying something I know might be hurtful if it comes across wrong I try to explain what I'm trying to say. Unfortunately this doesn't alleviate this problem. Friday night I went to our squadron's social which was bunko. I LOVE this game. It's so much fun and I adore the ladies in our squadron. They are all wonderful people.

Let me give you a little background info. I have a hard time saying no to people. If someone asks me to do something I usually do it even if I really don't want to. Now there are a lot of things I say yes to because I really want to do them. Anyway, I wanted to take more responsibility in our squadron social group and I stepped up to the plate to do a few things like run the meals on wheels program, giving out baby gifts, treasurer of the group, and a few other things here and there. Then I was asked to become the Key Spouse of our squadron. I was so excited and honored to get this position. I still really want to do this. However some of the other things I've been doing I'm getting burnt out on. Not that they are hard but it seems like there is something new to do for the squadron daily, not to mention my key spouse duties. So at bunko Friday night I said that we were looking for someone to take one or two things off my plate because I was getting a little burnt out. Now I don't know that I said anything "wrong" exactly but I was told that I probably shouldn't have said that. It really started to bother me, thinking that I said something I shouldn't have. It's just that in truth, I'm sooo busy lately and it's wearing me down. It's not just stuff for the squadron. It's church stuff, Brennan's stuff, Jaxon's stuff, squadron stuff, stuff for friends, and then on top of it all Ian works a second job so he's not home a lot and then I try to add stuff in there for me once in a while. My time management really hasn't been the greatest lately. Usually I'm super organized and things run smoothly. However lately it's been all overwhelming and my housework is falling behind, friendships are falling behind, and I'm just plain old tired. So my big mouth might have gotten me into trouble. I really hope the ladies in the squadron don't think that I resent doing things for them. It's not that. I just really need to regroup and cut some things out so I'm not stressed out. There are things I can't cut out in my life like doctors appointments, jaxon's OT and PT appointments, Brennan's schoolwork, and church... But there are things like watching other peoples kids a lot and extra stuff here and there that just have to go for right now. Please pray for me. Pray that God will show me how to politely decline things so I don't let go of the wrong things. Thanks!

No comments: