Tuesday, August 5, 2008

Who Needs It More? Me or Jaxon?

You see it's time. Well, at least everyone else thinks its time and Mommy here isn't so sure. We are embarking on taking away his binkie. Ian really wants to take it from him and is convinced that it will not be hard. However, he is at work for most of the day. He gets him for 4 hours at night when he comes home from work and I leave for school. I'm not saying he's wrong. And part of me knows that he needs to learn to comfort himself. Last night while I was at school Ian put him to bed without a bink. And lo and behold he did just fine. I don't know whether it's because he'd had such a long day and was just too tired to care or that he really didn't need it. So I went through the house this morning and picked up all the binkies and hid them. Ian asked me to try not to give in and give it to him. I'm really going to give this my all. Today I'm going to lunch and to my friend Sarah's house. I hope we make it through because Mommy is going to be brave and not take a just in case one with us at all. I'm so nervous. I don't want a melt down and that's usually when I tend to give in. So I'm not sure who really needs the bink more, me or Jaxon. But I guess I'm willing to give it up so hopefully he will be too? I know this sounds weird but it's a hard transition. My baby is growing up. I can't believe he will be 2 next month. So if we lose the binkie what's next? What else will be able to do? Can't I freeze time and let him stay 22 months forever? It's just not fair. I'm not ready for him to grow up. I guess that's what it all boils down to. Wish me luck. With this transition and my 28th birthday next week Mommy maybe having a nervous breakdown. LOL

1 comment:

Sharon said...

No nervous breakdowns! LOL
I immediately think of the little boy repeating "nervous breakdown" in The Wedding Singer.

Milestones are so hard. I swear parenting growing pains are the hardest. At least you know Jaxon will forget all about this. But WE have to remember, and watch them grow up to only forget.
I wish we could freeze time.