Monday, September 22, 2008

Panic Attacks

You know I've dealt with depression and other issues of depression all my life, including panic attacks. However, there was always a reason for them... some sort of trigger that I knew of. Lately things have been going okay, not terrible, not great but okay. We are just moving right along and Boom!!! Out of nowhere these awful panic attacks have thrown me to the ground. I'm not having full blown attacks all the time but daily there are times where I can feel my heart beating at break neck speed, and my breath comes faster and I start to shake and come close to tears. And the weird part I HAVE NO IDEA WHY! The last two nights I have had these stupid episodes where I am just paralyzed with anxiety. Last night I was sitting on the couch watching tv when out of nowhere it happened. Tonight I was at school. Just finished giving my presentation for my career prep course when it started again. I think I'm going to be booking my self a doctors appointment in the morning because I can't stand feeling this way. I just don't know how to stop it myself because I don't know why they are happening in the first place. Frustration isn't the word! It's so beyond that. I'm annoyed and scared all at the same time. Something has to be triggering it. Something has to happen to cause this but I'm totally clueless. But what's new right?

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