Monday, April 25, 2011

Cleaning House and The Spoon Theory

Today a good friend of mine commented that I am always cleaning my house and that she only cleans once a week and was curious why that was.  I sat thinking about this for a while and honestly I started to beat myself up.  Why do I have a house that is constantly needing cleaning?  Why can't I just clean one day a week and be done till next week?  But honestly there are several reasons.  For one, I live with 2 boys, one man, and one male dog.  I think they forget that I'm not their maid and leave messes wherever they trail through the house and do not bother to pick up socks, toys, wrappers and what not as they leave.  The second main reason I have to clean is that I simply, physically, can not clean my entire house in one day.  Between the fibromyalgia and the miniers, I have energy first thing in the morning and once it's used up, it's gone completely till the next day.  I have to do laundry and dishes daily. The other day I decided I would clean the wood floors in my house.  I got them all swept and mopped and after that I was in so much pain that I had to rest.  My energy comes and goes and I have to use it wisely.  My house is not filthy and never will be.  But don't be suprised if you come by my house at any given time and there are toys everywhere, and dog hair on the couches, or laundry piled on my kitchen table. My methods and life are different from yours and I'm okay with that.  I have a hard time explaining to people about this.  Often I get "well if you just do this, then you will feel better."  What they don't understand because they aren't in my shoes is that it isn't always so simple.  My point in writing this isn't to make anyone feel sorry or to say that I'm upset.  I'm simply writing because it was in my head and it will keep me up all night if I don't.  I came across a website called http://www.butyoudontlooksick.com/ a while ago and it explained perfectly what it is like to live with a chronic illness.  I would love to repost it in it's entirety but it's copy righted.  So please if you are curious about what it's like read it.  And remember that when I spend time with you, you have one of my spoons. :)